Pregnancy Update & Maternity Shoot!

The baby is due in a week (ahhhhhh) and I have not shared any updates on the blog since announcing that he is a BOY!  On Instagram, I share my bump pretty frequently, but it is quiet over here.  I got maternity photos with Mother & Child Co., a photography and stylist company specializing in sweet Momma and baby photos! In this case, I wanted a milk bath maternity shoot, which we did, but the photos are SO revealing, so I am only sharing one at the end because I do not want it all over web haha, so you get just me and photos of Nick & I!


The pregnancy itself has been a breeze! Colette (my 2nd pregnancy) we had a complication, so it was a high risk pregnancy and extremely stressful.  I was at the doctor’s all the time and in the hospital.  Thankfully it ended well and she is a healthy baby girl.  That experience though gave me the perspective to enjoy the quietness of this pregnancy.  I was in awe with how little I had to see doctor and every time I left the doctor it was with good news.  I tried to concentrate on the gratitude and enjoyed the little annoyances of peeing a lot, giving up sushi and wine, etc… I truly recognized how tiny those annoyances were & enjoyed complaining about them with a smirk on my face.

So, yes, I have sciatica, lightening crotch, would LOVEEeee to be in normal clothes again, but the pregnancy has been pretty non-dramatic and it being my third, I was so busy chasing the other two around, it went very fast.

Pregnancy & Depression:

I was not sure if I would include this update, but since I have shared my depression on here and on Instagram stories, I have heard from a lot of you and if being open and honest about my struggle helps anyone, then it is worth the scary open plunge!

Anyhoo, pregnancy & depression= Not fun. Haha. Quick summary from what I have shared in past- mom’s unexpected death last June- followed by a severe trauma in February. Collapsed into my worst episode of depression (which I already had but I became non-functional for a bit) Therapy ensued. Started meds, meds did not work. Surprise- pregnant! Got off meds.

The medicine did not seem to be working, so I did not think it was worth any risk to baby. About 6 months into pregnancy, we considered meds again, as I was not doing well. My therapists agreed it was worth a shot because I was now a few months past the trauma. Medicines are not a cure all and after my experiences, “anyone” would be depressed/sad, so they were unsure if the medicine did not work because of the nature of the experiences or if bio-medically it was not a fit, or some combo of both. I did genetic testing to see what meds may be more efficient for me. Unfortunately, the results came back with medications that are not allowed in pregnancy or nursing. I had no choice but to remain unmedicated.

So, what have I done? I have seen 4 therapists and maintain 3 of them. Tried EMDR therapy, aromatherapy, light therapy, neuro-feedback… I maintain a healthy diet and working out. It is difficult. I worry about what the depression and trauma have done to the baby (and my girls!). I try my best to keep my head above water. I’ve made a lot of progress cognitively since February, I have been back to work for months, I have more good days than bad and hope the end of pregnancy will help with some of the hormonal mood.

My biggest hope is that one day (the sooner the better 😉 , I will have experienced a lot of positive growth from these trials and end up being a better Mom, wife and human. Positivity is very hard with depression- hopelessness and despair are the overwhelming emotions.  Post traumatic growth focuses not just on resilience but THRIVING after trauma, which is what I would rather do.

Postpartum Depression:

I am at risk, but I now have therapists (unlike when I had PPD after Colette & had no idea something was wrong with me…) and IF a problem arises, I can be treated right away.  I recognize this treatment may include getting on the medication and giving up nursing and I am working on the mental & emotional hurdle that will come with that.  I am concentrating on my overall health being what is best for ALL of the kids and Nick & I. The best case scenario would be I do not experience postpartum depression, it is not a guarantee I will get it as I did after Colette’s pregnancy.

Other, not depressing Baby stuff!!

No name yet!! We have a couple options but cannot decide!

Also, on Instagram I get a lot of questions about what I am wearing while pregnant, unfortunately, I could not get a photo shoot in and now that I am 39 weeks along, I am down to some leggings and a couple long tanks, so there is not much to share! I plan to do an after baby post with my maternity choices though!

And here is one milk bath shot!

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  1. Kristin

    January 24th, 2018 at 11:21 am

    This is beautiful! I love the mood, it’s very angelic and maternal! Congratulations!

  2. laurelstavros

    January 30th, 2018 at 6:32 am

    Thank you Kristin!

  3. Marlene - Idle Hands Awake

    January 24th, 2018 at 4:31 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story, Laurel. You are incredible for retaining this resilience and positivity through these intense hurdles. I know depression can be crippling, and PTSD is no cake-walk either. Always remember that the bad episodes will pass again. You have felt better before, and you will feel better again. It sounds like you are doing everything in your power to take care of yourself and your family, which is all any of us can do. Sending you big, big hugs and positive vibes! You look AMAZING!

  4. laurelstavros

    January 30th, 2018 at 6:31 am

    Thank you so much Marlene!

  5. Jenni

    January 24th, 2018 at 6:19 pm

    Wow! Laurel thanks for sharing your story and your beautiful pictures! I love how you decorate and I absolutely love your milk bath photo. It’s so sexy and motherly. You should definitely frame that one as it reminds me of a Mother Earth photo. Your hanging chairs are fantastic too! Oh how I love your style and inspiration. You truly are talented! Congratulations on your little prince!

  6. laurelstavros

    January 30th, 2018 at 6:30 am

    Thank you Jenni! So glad you like the milk bath, I love the milk bath maternity shoot, I think I will do one with baby too! Thank you for reading, xo

  7. Ellen Gray

    January 25th, 2018 at 10:19 am

    Hi Laurel, this is Ellen Tab Grays wife. I struggle with depression big time. I go to a kinesiologist and he does NET on me. Neurological Emotional Therapy (you can google this) and wow it is amazing how it has helped me!! I would be such a wreck without him!! He is on Shea and the 101
    Dr Mike McCartney 480 661 1977
    I know this will help you. Let him know I referred you do go.

  8. laurelstavros

    January 30th, 2018 at 6:27 am

    Thank you Ellen! I do some music therapy which I believe is a part of NET? But I will look into this, thank you so much!

  9. Melissa

    January 25th, 2018 at 1:37 pm

    Gorgeous photos, Laurel!!!

  10. Katie Say

    January 27th, 2018 at 11:38 am

    Laurel, you look so beautiful! That milk bath shot is magical. And your and Nick’s place is heavenly! Hoping the best re bringing your baby into the world and postpartum depression. Regular depression sneaks into my life from time to time and it’s definitely tough to overcome.
    In my eyes, you are superwoman!

  11. laurelstavros

    January 30th, 2018 at 6:25 am

    Thank you so much Katie <3

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